ECCLESIASTES

THOUGHTS ON ECCLESIASTES

[Rob Lacey died of bladder cancer. These are thoughts from his story.]

Everything is subject to God handing it over.
Without God around, who can eat and enjoy?
Remember the God who made you, and
respect God, live His way - that's our role to play.

Bless me, Lord, for I have sinned.
If YOU kept record of our sins, Lord,
who could last long, who could stand.
But YOU are always merciful, and
YOU have the power to save!

I am able to recognize Your blessings
in my life today, but sometimes I do not
know just where to look for them.
Some seem to come like Paul’s thorn,
but I know Your Grace is sufficient!

"Your bladder cancer is back."
O Lord, I need your help!
"Stop touring your shows."
"Try for a baby before treatment."
P A I N !

But why me? Not them?
And You do bless me, Lord.
I didn’t memorize the Book of Job.
I didn’t wear an anointed prayer shawl.
Or even a special hospital gown.
And I didn’t say MERCY LORD!
a million times or more (not quite).

So, it is because I’m worth it?
Well, I am worth it to God!
HE gave His Son for ME!
But HE died for OTHERS!
They are worth something too!

So Why? Or When? Was it
already planned - right back then -
or did GOD shuffle and shift?
And watch all our prayers lift up
past His eyes with all the incense
it says in Revelation 5:8?

January 2001 - Lukas is born!
My son! But Sandra is sort of a
single mother with me being sick.
I’m depressed, a hermit in my own home.
Yet I’m able to write, on Revelation - and
God’s Great Glory fills my mind.

I keep looking to YOUR GLORY LORD!
But we’ll never see the subplots,
the alternative scenes, and not until we get
THERE WITH YOU will we ever get to
read the Script to find out what it all means.

And there is no recipe for what You give free.
It’s not that I toughed it out with cameras
stuffed up my nether regions, and tubes
pushed through my back, and
needles in my failing veins. None of that.
Not my attitude, no clue, no interview.
I may die, and not know Why!
Would that be God’s Will?

Or, is it God’s Plan never to fill an empty grave?
Or, does He save each one of us?
So how come some still die?
And why this? Why that?
And with the answers so shy,
what’s the point in asking.

So I won’t try to work it out.
or sweat to work it through.
For now, Rob, just face it.
God’s mercy and blessings and hope
are focused on you.

Leave your lopsided, left heavy, rational,
rigorous brain, that searches for questions.
Just give GOD HIS FAME!
Lift up your voice and YELL!
Thank You Emmanuel - God With Us!
In Eternity I WILL BE WELL!